I am making this post to make a general statement about my past mutes and punishments. Along with how I conducted myself during my time on the staff team. So, let's start this off by saying that I am a human, I have needs and wants just like everyone else. Along with that, sometimes our motives don’t always follow our morals. So. When I was a staff member, as most of you know, I followed the rules. Took them out of context and was very stubborn that I was always right. As a general statement I would like to make before getting into the beef of this thread, I’ve changed. I know anyone can say that, and it’s hard to believe sometimes. Hopefully this thread helps to outline my mistakes, and how I’ve changed and grown as a person. I hated being wrong - Don’t we all? With most of my mutes, I knew I was wrong. But I kept pushing. Looking back on it now, it was a stupid thing to do. I spent countless hours fighting with Omega in PM’s and he would spend hours repeating the same thing to me over and over. When I was staff before, All I wanted was to be right. And now I see that being right is not what really matters, it is making the right choices. I was very stubborn - As a staff member, I could never listen to another person’s ways. I would always fall back into my old routine. I would never listen to the viewpoints of players, And I think that that is a reason most of the communities' views on me are negative ones. I see now that in a dispute, the other person’s viewpoint matters the most. And if I saw that while I was staff, most of my mutes wouldn’t have happened. Omega - At the beginning of my staffing carrier, Logic told me that omega was a “big scary manager” and in the beginning, I wanted to be friends with him. Soon though, my relationship with Omega deteriorated. We never really were friends. I feel like all the things I did recklessly affected omega more than anyone else. Omega was the person arguing with me for hours in PM’s. He was the person who cleaned up after me, even if he didn’t fully agree with me. He spent hours repeating himself. I’m dreadfully sorry that I wasn’t nicer to you Omega. I see now that I was wrong, About everything. This is a picture taken during one of our disputes. Yes, even Omega was not fond of me. Throughout my staffing carrier, Omega has always pushed me to do better. And I have given him nothing in return besides false promises, and restless nights. I want to fix my relationship with Omega. And other members on the staff team. The player base - I know most of you are not that forgiving, I’ve been with you guys for a few years. I know what I did was wrong. And I want to fix it. I really wasn’t sure on how to fix my relationship and view in the community, but this is what I came up with. I know most of my punishments were wrong, but my drive to always be right was so overpowering that I lost touch with what was right anymore. This break from the staff team has helped me to take a step back and reconnect. I now know that my punishments were unwarranted, and in most cases downright laughable. The staff team - Where do I even begin with you guys. During my staffing carrier, I put a mask on, And I found it very hard to take off. That is not an excuse for the way I treated any of you. It is an explanation, and I would like to say that now, with my short time apart from the community, I have finally taken that mask off. The reason why I put a mask on was simply put: to be more likeable. Everyone gets nervous about joining a team. Obviously it got out of hand quickly, and I didn’t know how to stop it. As Omega says, a lot can change in a few months. a lot of change has gone on with my personality. I have matured and learned from my mistakes. So, I am asking the community, and the staff team for a chance to prove that I have changed. Thank you for reading.